I see and feel the change, change of heart, change of mind, change of the way I saw everything before the change began. So I realized just now while trying to resist sleep that there’s some emotion that I have for the person I’ve been hooking up with I don’t like the person in that way and I really don’t want anything more “relationships suck” and thats what I’ve been telling myself for like 3months now. I just feel like him and I share a common liking for each other I’ve never felt as comfortable with any other guy but him and he knows me. These two huge factors really contribute to why I don’t mind hooking up with this person. Familiarity, is what drives me to do the things I do or be with the people I’m with; there’s something about seeing ones face over and over again and growing more and more love for someone, some place, something, that makes me so committed and have so much interest and excitement to see that person again and be with them more and not get bored of them. I loose interest when the person is not around but I gain interest when they are. And that’s my problem but also my gift because the right people are usually around.
